Naya and I have been together 6 months today! Half a year. She’s two inches taller, and is quickly approaching her 5th birthday in September, which she brings up quite regularly.
My family and I have found ourselves wondering how pre-Naya life was ever a reality. She’s captured all of our hearts with her kisses, and her attempts to open her mouth wide enough to pretend she’s eating our faces or arms. I’m so thankful with how seamlessly she has transitioned. There have been some hard adjustments here and there, but I know it could be SO MUCH harder. In my adoption books, classes and community I have heard stories of the severe daily trials that some adoptive children and families face, and I did my best to prepare for that. But Naya has shown amazing resilience, a joyful disposition, and an overall emotional health that I am so thankful for.
She had dance moves that I was entirely unaware of until my cousin JR & Becca's wedding in Florida last month, which you can enjoy here:
In the next couple months Naya’s heart will be re-evaluated by the doctors here in San Diego and we will make plans for her future surgery. I have been able to personally consult with the top pediatric cardiac surgeons around the country, and feel much better prepared to decide on a plan with the doctors here at Rady Children’s Hospital. My friends who have been in my shoes before me have been such a help to me; figuring out how to get second opinions, how to search out the best surgeons and hospitals, and how to handle it all in my head & heart. The emotional and prayer support of my closest friends and family, as well as many people I have never met, has meant the WORLD to me and given me the strength and confidence to face our future trials head on and have faith that there are good things ahead.
My cousin Jenna is an amazing photographer (http://finaphotography.com/) and she took some awesome pictures of Naya and I, I have a hard time picking my favorites!
On a Jesus-stuff note, my sister Rose posted this song on her blog, and I will steal it and share, because it’s words have been resonating in my heart whenever I hear it.
“Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger”
'Deeper than my feet could ever wander’ feels very familiar. My feet would not have wandered into motherhood, single motherhood, or mothering a child with a potentially terminal medical condition. But I'm here! And I have joy and growing faith, and I know it’s because God changed my heart and brought me here, so I’ll pray he continues to lead me to the places I wouldn't have taken myself.
“So I will call upon Your Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine”
The line ‘keep my eyes above the waves’ is such a great visual for me, to me to stay strong and take heart when the waters get rough. There’s been a lot of calling on Jesus’ name and asking for help in the last 6 months. And I'm so thankful that I can rest in his embrace. But I do have to keep reminding myself of that awesome option!